We haven't been able to do much by way of TTWD, due to a house guest. The guest is gone, our house is now ours again (well, ours and a few small creatures that also inhabit it). This night, I was sitting in my chair, relaxing, when Popeye came up to me and held out his hand. Told me we were going upstairs, I needed maintenance. This is usually how we get back into the swing of things.
I have been wanting this, needing it. Waiting patiently for him to embrace his role. Then he does, and I FREAK! Maintenance? What? No! I'm tired, crabby, I was relaxing. I've been good...if I do say so myself, which I do! Yup, that is me. All I want is for my husband to embrace his dominance. Until he does that is! I am a walking contradiction. I am very dominant, and my husband really isn't. Unless I encourage it, and push, then he will but only if I'm submissive first. I want this. I want this even when I think I don't. I want him to take the lead without me feeling like I pushed him to. I am dominant because I feel I have to be (back story there, that may be another post). I don't want to be. I want to be his, his to take, his to lead, the one that trusts him and happily follows. I love making him happy and doing little things for him. But, I want him to push for those things even when I'm not playfully wanting to do it.
So, back to this maintenance night. I decided I better submit, that's what this is all about right? So, I followed him upstairs. He bent me over the bed. Gave me a few smacks with the horse whip thing we have (which I should note - I HATE) but then, that was pretty much it. My lecture was more seductive in tone, and the spanking was more fun and light and breezy. Followed by a little intimate dominance from my husband. Now, that I do love!
So, we are moving forward with really embracing this daily. Although I haven't really been spanked since. But, we've both been sick with that cold that seems to grab hold and last for weeks. We have talked though, and I think we are finally on the same page with this. Looking forward to what the future will hold, spankings and all!
